April

It seems like an April fool for you, if i tell you i changed job with decision making only in 1 day. Only in 1 day, my role totally changed from an academic researcher to an on-site study coordinator. Great challenge for me, especially i need to take over the workloads in 5 days, and hand over to my colleagues in the same time. I reverted back to my old position, a lone ranger.

Works

From January till now, i have been working on 1 grant proposal, 6 abstracts, 1 poster, 3 interviews; and due, 1 presentation, 5 sets of statistical analysis,  3 manuscripts and 1 review. Coming soon will be the lecture notes for research management and practical biochem, if they take me up as part time lecturer. I haven't got time to plan for my Indonesia trip, which due in 2 months time!

Wish

I remember a few wishes i asked for my 2012 new year resolution. 2012 was a fruitful year for me, but also very much a tearful year with more worries, pressures and disappointments. I would say it was 50% happiness and 50% stressfulness to conclude my 2012 year. However, it becomes clear to me about my next plan in 2013. This time i don't feel to put any wish, but i sincerely hope that i can listen from my heart about the message of God to me, and follow His path of what i suppose to do. 2013 is much more uncertainties than previous years, yet, the more challenge and unpredictable the future is, the closer i feel and the more i need to stay faithful to our God. If there is anything i could wish, is peace. Clearly, the gang rape outrage in India and gun shot in States elementary school has truly traumatized me. Only that we bow down to repent our sins and mistakes, the world would remain peaceful.

Repent and contentment

This year Christmas is a special one, which marks my 7th year anniversary as Christian, and am grateful that i learned TWO new words: Repent and Contentment. This year 2012 was full of hassles for me. I faced  angers, disappointment, stress, challenge, and uncertainties. For one point, i realize i just too greedy and asked too much, which actually i had several good moments too, and instead to feel joyful i let the negative feeling filled my mind most of the time. Why was i always let this sinfulness to leave in my heart? It got me to think that i put my own benefit on top of my love to my family and Jesus. I wish i can get promoted, yet i got terminated and replaced with new contract with lower pay. I felt jealous as it turned out that i only worth the qualification like those fresh grads. While i am hoping someone superior than me as in position, to defend me, they told me i wasn't promoting myself hard enough. I am disappointed to be treated like this. The joys of friends and relatives to grow their family added another pressure to myself, i am happy for them and at the same time, i wonder why there is not my turn yet? As the eldest in the family, i am facing the financial crisis of the family. While i am accusing my parents to be stubborn, i realized i am just the same as them. Sometimes i had a forceful smile to myself and surrounding, till then, God has sent his angels to me. HE told me to repent and feel contented. This got me to think that what we are having right now, is not a must and what we wished. Instead, it is just a process that God wanted us to go through. The true meaning is how does all these reality turn out to be a realization of how weakly we are. Only when we repent, to understand the sacrifice of Jesus to clean our sins, and so we learn to be grateful, joyful and a better person. When we are asking for more, we will eventually find out that we would never get the maximum of what we wanted. The more you dream, the farther that dream it becomes. It is now important to be contented, and be grateful that at least i am alive with my love one, and ain't face hunger.

Ephesians 2:8 

For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God,

Philippians 4:11-12 

Not that I am speaking of being in need, for I have learned in whatever situation I am to be content. I know how to be brought low, and I know how to abound. In any and every circumstance, I have learned the secret of facing plenty and hunger, abundance and need.

God, thanks for letting me know about these. Please use me for Your plan. 

updates

Hi everyone, it has been months long i didn't update about my progress.

First, i wanna congratulate CK, deeply from my heart. I am super proud to have such a brilliant friend, and hopefully there is chance for us to collaborate one day. Second, i bet everyone is very busy, and i realize i wanted to know the updates from Yee kai, Marcus from their blogs. I also missed the chance to meet up with my girlfriends, those Connie, Su Yin etc this year. Argh.. i really wonder how they are doing so far.

I'm not sure if anyone is missing me as i did, anyway, i will just do a little bit update about myself.. i finally graduated  with a MSc, with two papers accepted, got one grant approved, and prepared two projects for two Master students (i consider myself, to co-supervise them. =p); be part of the team to set up a pre-clinical site, and work up with new project with other universities. And just recently, i got myself engaged with a mutual fund business (not expanding at all, because i do it mainly for my own investment) and planning to start a mini bakery business next year. Well, although it seems like i am progressing well with my career and income, actually i am stuck in a "backward" mode.

My contract is finishing soon, and will be replaced by a new contract that gives me lower pay. This is so unfair, as i have 4 years working experience, with MSc qualification, i will only be paid with an undergraduate salary. This is such a terribly feeling, especially no matter how i like this job and how much i spent my time for my boss. Anyway, i believe this is not a big deal. I have my Plan B. =p

Great Kiwi Road Trip: Day 14 - Riccarton， Botanical garden and Lyttelton

We had a really late dinner last night, I still how hungry I was while waiting for everyone for dinner. Anyway, Uncle Mok had a house in Christchurch last time so basically, he is very familiar with Christchurch. He actually drove us all around, to see the night view of Christchurch and some of its neighborhoods. 

Artistic plant from the park of CBD

 

We had a quick breakfast, and paid a visit to Riccarton Sunday Market which just located right opposite of our motel. There are about 300 vendors which selling fresh fruits, furniture, clothing, and some plants or trees. We spent 1 hour there, and more than happy by any other people because we finally found a place that could offer cheap clothing! I think all three of us had bought 20 overs clothes in just half an hour of time there, my father in law was quite worried that we couldn’t fit all these clothes into our baggage. LOL

After a short visit to Riccarton market, we made a short trip to Botanic garden. The place is one of the devastated places after earthquake, so was quite poorly maintained. Though not much flowers to be seen, we still had a good time there.

Riccarton market

Botanic garden

Had fun at botanic garden

Last trip before we off to airport, we drove to one outskirt – called Lyttelton where situated about 20 minutes from the CBD of Christchurch. This is one of the most damaged earthquake places, and we can see many houses being abandoned. Despite all these damages, Lyttelton is still a famous leisure place for the local folks. Usually during weekend, people will come to the beach for swimming, cycling and picnic. I guess that time we were quite tired already, so didn’t really enjoy the view there. Anyway, we did enjoy the sorbet and ice-cream. It was delicious!

The day did pass really fast, and till then it was about 9pm, we returned our car companion and off we go, back to Malaysia. New Zealand is definitely a place worth a visit, because of its beauty, and friendly people, we definitely will come back again next time! 

Great Kiwi Road Trip: Day 13 - Geraldine and Christchurch

Second last day in NZ, we felt so sad because we’re soon leaving to this beautiful country. In the morning, we visited the Lake Tekapo again before we started our journey towards Christchurch. Again, Lake Tekapo in the morning was so different when we see it on evening time. Still stunning and breathtaking, how I wish I can stay in this place forever. 

Our homestay house last night

Our road trip towards Christchurch became less interesting, probably due to our wrong decision to choose a scenic inland route, rather than the conventional route which gives the view of green farmland of Mackenzie country. The scenic inland route which connects Mt. Somers, is mainly comprises of the scenery of sub-alpine tussocks lands and a range of alpine mountains. It would be nicer if we have time to explore part of the Arthur’s pass, which believed to be one of the best road trips in NZ. 

Our first stop was Geraldine, another small town between Lake Tekapo and Christchurch. They do have one mini museum, and it is worth to spend a few minute to explore the history of this town. We had a tea break, ice cream and bought a few handmade natural rolls of wools made from sheep from a local hawker.

The shepherd dog which helped to discover the Lake Tekapo

A lovely wild apple tree

Coffee shop at Geraldine

Fascinating golden colored tree

Morning scene of Lake Tekapo

Stunning view of Lake Tekapo canal

The view of Lake Tekapo, will never upset you

The trip continued towards Mt. Somers, and many steep slopes of mountains came into sight. We reached Christchurch when it was 430PM, and the upset things were, we actually entered into a city which just slowly recovered from the massive earthquake last year. On that evening, we traveled at few places in Christchurch and observed how bad damaged the earthquake caused. The whole central city was nearly left abandoned, damaged/scarred roads everywhere and residents started moving out to live in suburban areas. For me, the place equals to a doomed place.

Behind me is the South Island's Alps range

Our travel mood was quite disturbed with these sights, and also probably due to it was the last night we stayed in NZ.  Despite how devastated the earthquake caused, there are people still remain to stay with Christchurch forever. Proud of them!