Looked bad

Looked like I grew old fast in the past 1 year, my eye bags and dark circles look scary and my face always pale. Maybe too much tears plus the tension. Yesterday I realized how scare I am going to be devastated if worse thing happens.  I can feel myself low in faith, I keep thinking what is the possibility if I leave God- my only solid bound to rely on. Actually I ain't live that bad but why this thing so negatively affected me. It got me to think that maybe I should choose to quit. Sincerely I really hope my beauty and youthful can come back. I must work out with this.    

Full of hassles

My confidence and faith is in very low charged these days,  I had headache, insomnia, nightmare, and too lazy. Too negative of myself, I become so isolated that I seldom talk to friends and even my own mom, except my own husband. I must keep myself busy!

郁闷

每一个月总会有一段时间几乎每个小时都处在低潮。心情会忽然变得暴躁,身体也懒散,也和身边人有冲突。不知是不是这是女人专属的荷尔蒙分泌失调,还是自己的心病。女人啊,女人, 我也不大懂自己。