New life

Let me tell you a story.

A friend of mine was quitting and besides him, there were two other people recommended me to take the job. It was a very last minute decision, and what awaited me that time, was i foreseen how much workload i need to cope. A week passed, he managed to hand over part of what he had been trained for two months in Penang, to me in 4 days of time. My friend, or shall i say, he is still my supervisor, left for a better offer which granted him a chance to be with his family. It was indeed, a very good news. Now i want to explain why he still my supervisor after that he already resigned? Because, he broke his agreement with the company, and he is still a responsible person, so he got to guide me to judge whether i am competent to take over his job. This was his boss (now my boss) explanation.

Anyway, the main thing is i changed my job, and i am very unhappy. Not because of the workload, but the true face of my ex-boss, the one i worked for nearly 5 years. He probably don't understand, yet of certain things he had spoke to me over the phone, hurt my little heart. Now i am taking a new job because of him, and i also have to let go my Phd project because of him too.

I just came back from the grant defense meeting of this Phd project. It was a relief after the meeting, because i decide to let go, regardless how much time i've spent to work up this protocol. He is probably giving away this project to other people anyway. Unless i am very generous, i am happy to help up. But, why should i do this?

All these while i never say No, and i too efficient, which put me in difficult position. When you're in a position, whereby people agree your performance, but just because you are not pharmacist, not doctors, not a permanent government servant, you are nothing.

I've experienced that.

However, i appreciated all the opportunities, given by my ex-boss. Most importantly, i don't see this as i deserved to be treated that bad, it depends on how you see the things that God put us through.

I learned from zero, and today, i have experienced more than other people, though i was paid less.
I got no credit, yet, i feel contented (forcefully sometimes)

So, for this new job, i will commit like i always do. Just ignore me if i complain too much on blog or facebook, it will be just an emotion swing.

Start from today, i am a study coordinator. No more an academic researcher. And yeah, good bye my Phd project.